I’m currently writing this letter through tears. I don’t know if I’m emotional because Mother’s Day is coming up or if it’s because of the anniversary of a very traumatic event that happened to us, but I can’t stop thinking about what would happen if my baby had to grow up without me. I often wonder what I would want my baby to know if my time here on Earth came to an end before I had the opportunity to watch her grow up. I worry whether I’ll have enough time with her to teach her everything I need her to know, and to prepare her for navigating life.
I know it’s a bit of a morbid thing to think about. I try to push it out of my mind, but from time to time it creeps it’s way back in and I find myself fretting over it. You read stories about mothers who pass away leaving behind young children and you don’t let yourself believe that it could happen to you. I don’t want to be unprepared, so I wrote a letter to Grace for my husband or my grandparents to show her when she’s old enough to read it and truly understand what it means. Grab your tissues, guys.
May 12, 2017, 10: 22 p.m.
You CAN Change The World (And you will)
Never let anyone tell you that you can’t change the world. If you want to do something that will help our planet, people, the environment, animals, whomever…then do it. Do not let anyone tell you that your actions are in vain, for one simple, small action can speak volumes.
You Are Not Alone
Be a Leader
(I’ll likely add to this letter later on as the “real” letter my husband can give to her. I honestly didn’t proofread it either. I simply sat down to write it freely, without limit, and let everything out in one sitting, and without reading back through it. It felt great, and I honestly don’t know if I can read it again tonight without sobbing.)
Thank you for reading, and thank you for your support.
If you are a mother, what are your thoughts? What would you add to this list? What would you want your babies to know?